Good Bye March…

and Hello holidays….

March has been quiet and uneventful….all about trying to find a rhythm …decluttering and stepping out of hibernation…getting  ready to welcome the Spring…Oh Spring how I long for you…

And just when I thought that the right rhythm was taking residence in this mad place of ours the holidays landed upon us…Oh  holidays how I love you… even now that I do not go out to work…I found myself counting the days until the girls were off school and were all mine…. Oh school how I despise you….

No major plans for the holidays …my kind of holidays…let me tell you…late breakfasts, late enough to give me time to bake their favourite treats…relaxed mornings, pj till well after  breakfast together ……some board games…longer dinner talks without homework rush to spoil it…baking or cooking with a girl or two…trying out new things in the kitchen with a girl or two…visiting friends and having friends round…staying up late with a girl or two or three…

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What about you? What is your idea of the perfect holiday/break? Are you a traveller or more of a staycator like me?

Salaams y Hasta la vista,

Ines

All by myself…

Oh boy… he is not gone even 24 hours and I miss him like mad…Since we married all those years ago we have always taken separate breaks/ holidays and they have never affected me as badly as in recent years…I still remember when HE LEFT ME last year…To celebrate that I was husband free, I organized a girly night at home and guess what?!!! I cancelled it the night before. Just as I was trying an outfit for the occasion I broke down in the changing rooms in front of my girls…life was not worth it without him…I couldn’t function without him , let alone party all night…Poor girls didn’t even know where to look while I had my moment….
Pathetic I know but there’s got to be a reasonable explanation for such phenomena cause I’m not by any stretch of the imagination a weak, man dependent type of woman.

Anyways who’s got the time to look for reasons/excuses for my current mental, emotional or heart state when I have a million things to do all by myself. Who is going to make sure all doors are locked at night if I’m too busy sulking? Who is going to put baby to bed every single night for ten days if I don’t stop crying and feeling sorry for myself? Who is going to fill up my petrol tank?!!!!  Who is going to do grocery shopping on Sunday morning? Who is going to do the rubbish?!!!! Who is going to kick me out of bed in the morning and wake up the girls too before going out to work?………………….

I miss my husband period…I need my husband and I’m not ashamed to admit it… I want my husband and I want him now because is time to drive dd17 to her voluntary work in the old peoples’ home….. 🙂

In all seriousness I miss him in the evenings the most. The moment he gets in for work marks the beginning of adult time. We have an unspoken routine going on that feels almost like synchronized dancing ( shut up Ines you are starting to sound stupidly corny)…we all eat, chat, share our days…. and then he gets the girls in the kitchen and deals with the mess in the kitchen while I go to my computer and switch off…Once baby is put to bed is when real adult conversations can take place…nothing out of this world but quite a thing for me now that I don’t have adult company during the day since I don’t have colleagues to talk to at break times…

Oh time to stop now because I’m upsetting myself far too much …Time to get up and do something else apart from feeling sorry for myself…Best things in these cases is to keep oneself busy..so let’s get on with tidying up the bedding, towels, sorting out the shed, organizing a coffee morning, decluttering stationery….

Salaams y hasta la vista,

Ines

 

I’m just going to…

write…because I can and want and need and because baby is asleep and why not!!
The thing is I worry too much about what to write and how to write it and if it’s good enough…is anyone going to read it and on and on and on…
Well from today …as from now…I’m going to write when I feel like it …whether I have a fancy pic to go with the post or not…whether I have anything interesting or not….
Many a times I have thought about what is the real point of blogging and I have even asked the said question here and nobody seems to have an answer…kind of everyone does it for a different reason …and I guess they are all legit and valid in their own way…

So anyways, I guess what I’m trying to say here is that my blog has no direction right now and I don’t think it has ever had one to be perfectly honest…I am now as I write , thinking that maybe is a reflection of my life right now…No direction….mmmm….that sounds a bit harsh…maybe it has direction but not rhythm…or maybe I’m just being too impatient…who needs a rhythm if it’s not natural…I am starting to panick at the mention of rhythm…When I look back at the last 3 weeks, the only thing I know for sure is, that when it comes to routine or rhythm or whatever you want to call it ,that not two days are the same in our house….and I’m learning to be  ok with that.

Overall I m happy and that should be good enough reason to carry on doing what I’m doing…which is ‘going with the flow’

Take for example this week…I had not planned to be welcoming people every day into our house and I loved every single minute of it… The old controlling Ines would have panicked and even ran round in circles like a headless chicken at the prospect of friends ‘inviting themselves’ to come round for a cuppa and a chat…

But I did it and I did it well even if I say so myself and I did it simply and that my dear readers is what satisfies me the most. I kept things simple and loving. More about simple hosting on another post.

Today , feels slow and quiet and that is good too…baby and I have already had a long session of story time and some tidying up and who knows what the rest of the day will bring but for the time being I’m enjoying writing and listening to Sarah’s snoring less than two meters away from me.

Plus….I’ve started another vintage strippy blanket …not sure for whom but it was the best way to use up all the different coloured left overs I have…

Plus …. Dh is going away for a week and I know Im going to miss him more that I want to admit here and I wish he didn’t have to go because I’m going to miss him too much….

Plus ….I’m carbs free….Have you guys heard of the carbs turn into insulin which in turn turns into fat theory?…no?!! wanna find out what on earth I’m about…read the Gary Taubes book or google him and there’s lots out there…So yeah the pounds are coming off effortless and I feel quite liberated…

Plus…I’m seriously considering home educating/schooling/unschooling/coop-educating Sarah…Not sure which route to go yet but starting to feel it…but still plenty of time …

Plus…on the living simply/frugally/on one wage and not on two any more front… I have now almost given up on routinely going to second-hand shops. What’s the point? Take for example the ‘buying cheap books for baby case’…Given the choice she much rather go to the local library and meet other children and sing along with the nice lady who does story time and borrow lots of books at the end of it all.

Salaams y hasta la vista,

Ines

On New Year Resolutions….

I know I know…it’s already March…but you know, in the past,by this time of the year , without fail,I had already given up and completely forgotten what the resolution was in the first place …so you never get to read about it…
But this year is a first!!! I’m still going strong…and you may ask what the resolution was…and I will tell you in due course…have some patience for crying out loud…

Actually I will tell you now as my poor literary skills do not allow for the creation of suspense in the written form…so without further ado this year resolution was and still is to….GO MINIMALIST…live simpler…declutter…organize…appreciate what I’ve got and be happy…learn that less is more….move away from consumerism…

The list is endless but they are all connected…it goes as deep as one wants and I will not bore you with ‘where I ‘m going and how to get there’ here and now…instead I will do it in installments  🙂 …I can foresee many posts dedicated to my new-found direction in life…Living a simpler life!!!

I have. for a while now ,been inspired by bloggers who have chosen to live a simple , minimalistic life and they continue to be just that, real role models who share their everyday experiences…and in no particular order…

The minimalists , Cat’s Meow , Simple Mom , Not buying anything,

And now my dear readers I must continue with my daily 15 minutes exercise of decluttering/organizing…I am taking part in this challenge and all I can say is that it is the greatest organizing tool I have ever come across…I started back in January and still doing it…like I said, this year’s resolution is here to stay!!!!

 

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So for now….

Salaams y hasta la vista

Ines

P.S if you want to declutter and organize your home I urge you to take the challenge too….